9.01.2010

Unexpected Changes.


The last couple days have brought my life to a screeching halt, due to some unforeseen circumstances.  That's a fancy way of saying the you-know-what hit the fan.  Sometimes my cottage instincts lean more toward 'mama instincts' as that is my number one priority.  Or should be.  All projects except kids get moved to the bottom of the list.  All creative energy is directed to human makeovers.  Too bad a bit of sandpaper and paint can't work the same magic on people.

But time moves along so quickly that this:


becomes this:


in the time it takes to paint a dresser heirloom white.  And suddenly that dresser just 'taint so important.

Life is gonna get a bit complicated here for a bit till our family finds our bearings again.  I have several posts in the works that I hope to finish up, then put them on a schedule, but if it goes silent over here, just know I'm renovating my life.  Circling the wagons, so-to-speak.

Blogging, doing projects, reading about all of your projects....this is so cathartic for me amidst a busy life full of homeschooling and family life.  I can't just erase that 'me time', but I know I can't devote the kind of time I have lately to decorating my house.  I know you understand.



If you're a spiritual-type person, I'd take any positive thoughts you could send our way.  We desperately need direction, humility, and wisdom to know where to go from here.  I'm sorry for being so non-descript about the circumstances...I can say no one's health is in danger, just dealing with the emotional fallout of some poor decisions.  Me included.  I feel a bit like this:


I'm still trying to smile, but the color has gone out of my world, and I find I'm strung up by a string with someone else at the other end in control.....and folks are lining up to beat me with a stick.  Blindfolded.  Ouch.

I'm also realizing how isolated I've become.  It's safe and easy to build online relationships....real life relationships are messy, often overwhelming.  But in times like the present, I miss the support of a real hand to hold.  I don't have a community of friends, just a few that I can reach out to for occasional pity parties, and I'm realizing that needs to change as well.


So, dear readers, please bear with me as I get my legs under me again.  I appreciate you stopping by to read and share bits of your lives.  I hope to continue visiting your corners of the web as a respite from the whirlwind that my life will soon become. Maybe looking back, this will seem like a brief blip on the screen of our lives, but for today, I'm kinda flailing around in the emotional mire.   Definitely a day for Little Debbie.


61 comments:

MommaHensCoop said...

This too shall pass :)

Cathy @ The Far Fifty said...

wow, I'm sorry you're going through tough times. Hang in there, take your time and we'll be waiting for you.

Tammy@InStitches said...

Saying a prayer for you and your family !

Pam @ diy Design Fanatic said...

Sometimes we all need to take a step back and take care of pressing issues. Totally understandable, considering you have a family, and especially teenagers! Will be praying for you during this time!

Rie said...

I'm so sorry you are going through something difficult right now. :( I'll pray for you.

Comeca Jones said...

Everything you need and want you already have because your prayers are in total alignment with God.Be blessed.

Claudia said...

I am sending prayers and positive thoughts your way, Cindy. Your first priority needs to be your family.

xo
Claudia

Cassie @ Primitive & Proper said...

you guys are in my thoughts.... there is a song that says, "we'll muddle through whatver we do, together, wherever we go." i am pretty sure it is (embarassingly enough) from the original parent trap with haley mills, but it's true- together, we can get through anything.

GRAMS said...

I am so sorry to hear of your hard time. It's so difficult but when it is over if it ever is we see the reason behind it all. My four son's chose paths that I have struggled with for years now and I still don't see the reason behind the suffering but it has made us all stronger and more accepting. I'm praying for you.
Janis

Suzanne@Meridian Road said...

I hope you can all get through your rough spot. Hopefully it's just a bump in the road.

InMyOwnStyle said...

Hi Cindy-

Blogging is fun and exciting for us at times, but family always comes FIRST no matter what. Your blog will still be here when you get your bearings again. You will still have all of your readers as we love to read your posts and enjoy your wit and would never abandon you. Life can be messy and can be quite hard to cope with at times, especially when ones health is on the line. Please know I am thinking about you and I hope you can keep your positive outlook through your challenge.
My best- Diane

Bree said...

I think we all can empathize with you on the family issues part. I dont ever speak about this esp on an open blog to the world, but being the only child that is in a family of siblings who are either heroin users or into alcohol( I have never and will never touch drugs or Alch)This is just a cloud on an other wise blessed day. If we didn't have the bad times we wouldn't appreciate the good times.No matter what the issue is in any of our lives..it wil always get better. I cant believe I just shared that with the world. I barely speak about my family * eyeroll* * Smile*

Bree <3

The Mac's House said...

Cindy,

Oh boy do I know that feeling. I had that type of time a little over 2 years ago. While I don't know personally what is going on with you and your family all I can say is to find strength thru your faith whatever it might be.

I too isolated myself thru circumstances of moving to a new area and never really feeling like I fit in with anyone other than my online friends. I have had online friends for over 11 years that I still have today, never met but chat with them online either every day or every other day. I can't share coffee with them or a smile in person but I can get the support that I so desperately was looking/searching for.

So blogger friend here I am outstretching my arms to give you a huge online hug!

Take care and know that there are some of us out here in the cyber world that are thinking and praying for your strength to make it thru....

Teri in Virginia!

marty (A Stroll Thru Life) said...

So wish I was there to give you a hug and an ear and lots of prayers in person. So through the web I am sending it all. God Bless. Hugs, Marty

Maryann @ Domestically-Speaking said...

There is nothing more admirable than a Mom taking care of her family ;) I will pray that God gives you and your family wisdom and clarity in this season.

Mandy said...

prayers for you and yours, Mandy

shannon i olson said...

mmm yes life interrupted. take a break. Life really does change.. I have 2 kids and yep they were little when we started home schooling and things were easy..now at 21 and almost 18 and both dating, non-Christians I am concerned about upcoming decisions. You do all you can, pray and go on. I know they are in better positions than I was at their age but you just want to save them from the bad things or the dumb things....and boy did I do some dumb things! love to you and your family, what ever it is ....it came to pass and God is good and he is there for all of you.

Melissa said...

I hope you won't mind this or be offended, but these verses come to my mind when I feel like my life has been turned upside down and someone is stomping on me!
Cast all your cares upon Him for He cares for you.

God is my Refuge and Strength, a very present help in time of trouble.

Remember, God has big shoulders, he can handle all our problems, and he'll help us through them. It is so much easier with Him.
Keeping you in my prayers!

Krista@thegatheringplacedesign said...

Sending thoughts and love your way.

Kim@Seasons of My Heart said...

Cindy~
My heart truly aches and grieves for that which you are walking through. And that's a key thought, 'what you are walking through."

Isaiah 43: 2 says,
"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze."

You will walkt THOURGH this season....as hard as that thought may be to grasp today...it's God's truth and promise.

What you are walking 'through' has NOT caught the ALMIGHTY by surprise. Nor, is he sitting in heaven, wringing his hands wondering WHAT ON EARTH AM I GOING TO DO NOW?

Rather, he's there, waiting for you to RUN to him, with open arms, falling into him crying, and pouring out your heart and soul to him....because he knows.

I'll be praying specifically that God will reveal his WAY, TRUTH, AND LIGHT to yoru situation...and as you SEEK HIM, you will surely FIND HIM, and his will and direction for your life.

On my knee's for you.
Kim~

Leslie @ Farm Fresh Fun said...

So sorry that you are dealing with some tough times. Online ((((hugs)))) sent. Hope you have some tel #s of your online buddies. That helps me ~ my BFF was met online but now is a staple of my days - I call her when I'm thrifting, fuming, worrying, celebrating... ... Nothing beats a live voice and the ability to dump your troubles with out editing! Your post was very moving - love seeing that shot of your beautiful kids then n now. Blink and you can miss so much. I wish you a speedy return to calm seas (and candy after they knock the stuffing outta you w/that bat)!
Blessings,
Leslie

Flat Creek Farm said...

Prayers going out for you and your family... right now!! Hugs & positive thoughts... Tammy

Vickie said...

Haven't been here long, but as a mom and a Christian, and without needing to know the problem, I can say that I know where you're coming from. Prayers are going up for you and your family as you guys work through whatever it is. We need not know. We've all been there or will be at some point. Please take care of your family and yourself FIRST AND FOREMOST. And always always lean on the Lord.

Leanne said...

Go take care of your beautiful family. I'm sorry for whatever you're going through but know my prayers are for you and your family at this time. I hope you're feeling the love God has for you and your trials will be overcome soon. Take care!

Heidi said...

Interesting, I've been going through the same thing, a bit of a transformation. Life is funny that way, it throws things at us just when we feel like we can't take anymore. And then we find our strength and do what we have to do.
So sorry you're going through some tought times, lean on the friends you trust and take your time. It will get better. Thinking of you.
xo
Heidi - Heart and Home

Anita @ GoingALittleCoastal said...

Hugs to you my friend. Although I'm new around here your smile and humor brighten my day. I wish I was there to hold your hand. I too have distanced myself from hand holding friends since we moved here so I know what that is like. Sending good thoughts your way. :)

Michelle@Fromhousetohome said...

I'm thinking of you! The "downs" in life make us who we are, make us strong and though it may not seem like it now, I'm sure there are plenty of "ups" in your future.
~Michelle

Sara @ thesherlockshome said...

"God gives us grace when life is more than we can handle. "

You are in many, MANY, thoughts and prayers! Probably more than you ever imagined.

Sara @ thesherlockshome said...

"God gives us grace when life is more than we can handle. "

You are in many, MANY, thoughts and prayers! Probably more than you ever imagined.

Jen T said...

I'll pray for all of you. Get some good friends around you. I'm going to do the same and get off this computer. You'll be back on the mountain in good time. Until then...take care of yourself.

Glenda/MidSouth said...

Yes, family does come first. Take your time.
There are so many things I wished a little sandpaper and paint could repair.

Stacy said...

you are thoughtful to let your readers know you will be out for a while. . . i pray it is a time of deep growth for all involved and that you find the grace to invite others in as you seek to develop your real life community.

Mrs.B said...

Already sending prayers your way. I completely get everything you are saying! I just posted something similar the other day! Must be Devil Attack week! ;) Anyway...as you know...this WILL pass...we just have to press on!
:)

Anonymous said...

I just had to comment and leave you a bit of encouragement. I have been through the valley and I have seen the darkness. I have stayed in the darkness for fear of the light. It is only when I let the light shine upon me I was able to see the wrong in my world to make it right. I hope you see this as a time to right some wrongs and an opportunity to grow. God Bless.

Sharon @ Elizabeth & Co. said...

Sending caring thoughts your way. There will be sunny days ahead!

Marianne@Songbird said...

I am so sorry that you are going through a rough patch. I am sure you will come out at the other end stronger and happy again. In the mean time, take care of what needs to be taken care of and I am sending good vibes and positive thoughts your way.

Courtney ~ French Country Cottage said...

Good thoughts and prayers coming your way. :)

Tammy at Tattered and Timeless said...

Hang in there Cindy. Family comes first and in the scope of that blogging is just a pasttime. I hope all works out and you are in my thoughts. I went through a terrible time this past winter - family wise and had to drop everything to deal with it..but then in retrospect - everything was what I was dealing with not blogging.
tammy

Tammy at Tattered and Timeless said...

Hang in there Cindy. Family comes first and in the scope of that blogging is just a pasttime. I hope all works out and you are in my thoughts. I went through a terrible time this past winter - family wise and had to drop everything to deal with it..but then in retrospect - everything was what I was dealing with not blogging.
tammy

Carolyn said...

I pray all goes well for you and your family and I agree with 'this too shall pass'.

Take care,

Carolyn

May Flower Mama said...

I'm so sorry your going through this rough time and do know that prayers will be said for your family from me. I do hope that you can find some rest in the craziness of this moment you are in.

Courtney McAulay said...

I so wish that I could "poof" over to you in a cloud of smoke and give you a BIG hug. Just know that we all adore you. Have FAITH. ;)

sissie said...

I'm wishing you the best as you go through trying times. Family is everything and often Mom's are the glue that binds.
Blessings to you and your family.

hugs
Sissie

Lorie said...

Many thoughts and prayers and hugs!

angie on maui said...

I'm a new follower of yours, but still wanted to let you know that I am keeping you and your family in my prayers. Take as much time as you need to gather your bearings and focus on your loved ones. Clearly, you have an army of caring cyber-friends who will be here when you return. Much love...take care.

Maddie said...

I love you mommy. Lots and lots and lots. And I especially loved the photos you put on this post. I like seeing us little. BIG HUGS from the apartment complex down the road, and real ones too when I see you.

-schmode

Sweet as June said...

belief and hope... two powerful words.

Gloria (The Little Red House with the White Porch) said...

Wow, you have a lot of comments so I hope you can see how many people are thinking of you and will be praying for you because you are such a lovely person! Me included - I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Life may seem impossible right now, but as the days go on, whatever it is will lessen and lessen. There will be brighter days. You just have to have Faith. The good Lord won't leave you. Just have hope and things WILL get better. Take care my dear!
Best regards,
Gloria

Miss Gracie's House said...

Oh, Cindy...this could have so been my post in June...the words...the hurt...the raw emotions all sound so familiar. I will indeed pray for you and your family...and the healing that needs to happen...God is able.
Rene'

Chic Creations said...

I am so sorry you are going through something difficult.... My prayers are with you. The Savior Jesus Christ heals all wounds. . . He is the Master Healer. God Bless!

{ L } said...

I didn't know that you home schooled...I do too. ;)

You wrote this all so beautifully. My heart feels your pain as I read. I've been knocked on my face in life before and the pain was suffocating. I have just prayed for your heart to find comfort and peace right now. Hang in there, keep your chin up, and press on one moment at a time. You have a beautiful family. <3

Heidi@Mommy Tools said...

My husband and I have been going through what seems like never ending trials lately. It's amazing how words of encouragement from friends and family can help lift some burdens, even if just a little. I know that God is aware of your hardships. Sometimes I'll refer to my church's website for words of encouragement on any particular subject. It's a great reference for spiritual talks and lessons. You can basically type in any subject matter into the "search" on the site, and a bunch of articles or lessons will pop up from various members of the church. For example if you type in "dealing with trials", over 600 articles will come up. I know that a pretty general subject, but you could narrow it down to specific trials if you wanted. The website is lds.org. Try it out, I hope it helps!
Big hugs from me! I hope things look brighter soon!

The Frat Pack + Me said...

sending up a prayer for you and yours!

Polly said...

Hang in there Cindy! Hope the grey clouds part soon!

xo

Polly

gypsy@Hebrews11:13 said...

This past year has been like that for us too- feeling like the rug was pulled out from under us. Prayer and hope is what gets us through these trying times. As my Dad always said as I was growing up..."this too shall pass". Even now that our family is faced with the certain death of one of ours- we know that this moment really will pass and in light of eternity it is FLEETING. I hope you know that. I wish you the best as you step back and make changes and consider things. Good for you for knowing what to focus on right now.

Alaina said...

I hope that time heals, sometimes through choices there is a final reason. I am sure that all your blogger friends, myself included near and far send you nothing but positive thoughts to get you through this time.

The Other Me (is sane) said...

If you're trying to make a decision, turn to the book "If Life Is A Game, These Are The Rules". She explains in there that when it comes to your life's path, you cannot "Pro" and "Con" it, you can only answer "yes" or "no".

If it's financial, turn to Dave Ramsey's books, website, and radio show.

The Domestic Fox said...

I have stumbled on this blog several times, and found such a nice place to visit. Today - I am moved to comment
Bless your heart - from one mom to another - family first. Your friends, in real life and online, will always understand and be there when you are ready. Through health issues and major changes in my life - I have found out who real friends are. And surprise surprise - the very best ones lived in my computer. I seem to find kindred spirits out in cyber space...unlike in real life. Being an odd duck of sorts - that's just the way it is.
Keeping your family in my prayers that He will guide you through these troubled waters. And yes...this too soon shall pass...

Hannah said...

Sending prayers your way, Cindy. I totally know what it is like to be going about life like normal and then finding out that the rug was slowly (or quickly) pulled out from under you and you are now in a situation that is far from that "normal". You are right to concentrate on your family; they will be there long after the blog world is and each moment you have with them is to be treasured. Take some time for yourself in the midst of the chaos and seek God. He will show you what to do as you walk through this time in your life (((Hugs))).

Funky Junk Interiors said...

I don't know how I missed this post! Positive whatever you need is headed your way pronto!

Donna

Mrs. Jones said...

I just stopped by your blog for the first time day. I have said a heartfelt prayer for you and your family.

~Heather

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